Control

i watch my body tighten up and the muscles are popping out a little. tonight, i stood in the mirror and made motions to flex and see just how many muscles i could count. it's exciting to see my body changing- even though i know you're all going to say i should eat. it's just no fun any more and i don't need much to keep myself going. don't get me wrong, i eat, but it's just enough plus a little chocolate. my trainers say that all this is good practice for me- pushing my body. they say i'll not only become a good fighter in the case i'll need to defend myself again, but i'll also have the discipline to push forward when times get rough.